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Post by life.love.light on Jul 30, 2005 6:12:36 GMT -5
some poeple may know this, others may not have any idea about this...
i've been a christian all my life! i just can't figure out why i can't say it to other people..especially to my high school friends..
i was really afraid of so many things..natatakot akong hindi maka-gain ng friends since nag high school ako..so i've never told anyone about that..pero i realized..ano nga ba ikinakatakot ko? i won't be persecuted anyway? bakit ikinakahiya ko ang Lord sa buhay ko?!
maraming bagay na gusto kong maabot na kala ko magiging hindrance yung relationship ko with the Lord..i loved to be called ASTIG..yung tipong cool yung tingin sayo ng lahat..so i tried to fit in..and just now..i figured out na pwede naman pala kong maging astig sa Lord..
i've lived my high school life trying to please the people around me..my friends..pero how i can that say that i'm their friend if i'm not so true to them..
i really don't wanna come back to what i have been up to before..i am the same kristine you've known..only closer to God..
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many would say that it is a waste being a Christian...
for them, Christianity is a form of prison in which an individual becomes deprived of enjoying life and being happy...
well, there's a truth to that...
being a christian is, indeed, being imprisoned! but what sweeter prison can there be than to be in God's love! In the Lord, there is the genuine freedom of being free from the bondage of sin and of death and from the law...
besides, who would want to be free from the Lord?...and who would want to run away from the true joy of being found in the Lord?
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"for us this is the end of all the stories... but for them it was only the beginning of the real story. all their life in this world... had only been the cover & the title page: now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story, which no one on earth has read, which goes on forever & in which every chapter is better than the one before."
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Post by saladfingers on Jul 31, 2005 6:40:10 GMT -5
o_0 Anong nakain mo? Anyho, I’ve known since 3rd year HS that Kristine was a born-again Christian. We’ve discussed biblical doctrines a lot, compared catholic beliefs to that of born-again people and all that stuff. She didn’t directly say that she was a believer (a term for born-again Christians) but I figured out as much. And yes, I am too. Okay, you can pick your jaws off the floor now. Psh. If my memory serves me right, I never denied that I was a believer. . . nor did I verify it. So yeah, confusing it is. But hey, when some of you asked why there were no altars with Mama Mary pictures in our house, I honestly said that it was because we don’t believe in idol worship. I’ve never really paid much attention to those ‘what’s-your-religion’ shit, since the term born-again Christian isn’t a religion to begin with. But no, we’re not atheists. We’re just more focused to the relation we have with God. From nursery to 2nd grade I was enrolled in a Christian school so my religious status wasn’t a problem but when I was transferred to a public school, all of a sudden it became a big deal. That’s why from then on I seldom identified myself as a born-again. Not that I rejected it, but I just never voluntarily admitted that I was one. Can’t blame me though, with so many judgmental people around, one can’t help but just shut up. On a more serious note, there are several reasons why I wasn’t very vocal with my being a believer. And I know that some of these reasons also apply to Kristine. First, is the unwanted attention. Although it’s sad to admit that there are very few born-agains amidst us, it’s true. And so when one admits to be one, haaay naku santambak ang tanong sayo. And those who know me personally, are well aware that I’m short-tempered when it comes to overly-inquisitive sonsofbitches. Second, is the unintentional or intentional discrimination. There were instances, I remember, that some of my friends would disagree with my opinion just because we had different religious beliefs, just because I was a born-again Christian. And nothing pisses me off more than close-minded freaks. You share an opinion tapos babarahin ka ng, “Iba talaga ang palagay mo kasi born-again ka.” These kinds of reactions I can tolerate under certain circumstances like times during religious debates pero pag usapan na tungkol sa cosmetics tapos babarahin ka pa rin ng ganun, nakakapikon na talaga. Then there was also a time when a friend discouraged me to attend a Catholic mass, which is semi-okay since I know that from her perspective it was pointless for a born-again to attend such Catholic activities. Pero ang saken lang naman kasi nun eh, I was just trying to find a fixity. Hindi naman kasi purket pinanganak ako sa born-again family I would mindlessly accept their beliefs. So I was curious about other religions as well kaya gusto kong umatend ng Catholic mass DATI. The final reason is a bit more personal. I just feel that I haven’t reached that level yet wherein I can proudly say that I am a Christian. I dunno. It’s complicated. I have been taught that living a Christian life is full of sacrifices and I feel that I’m still not ready to make such sacrifices. Halata naman na hanggang ngayon pala-mura pa rin ako, and I still can’t shake off my habit of criticizing people. I can’t shed my secular lifestyle yet. I’m trying though. But change is gradual. So yeah. . . I want to set an example kasi, gusto ko na pag nalaman nilang Christian ako they’d see a living testament of Godly ways, which is the exact opposite of what I am today. Hehehe. Ayoko kasing makasira sa reputasyon ng christinanity. Pano ako makakahikayat ng mga tao na mag-convert sa pagiging born-again kung pati ako astang praning parin. Soooo that’s sums it up, mostly.  ------------------ Pssst frances remember nung 1st year tayo, we used to talk about born-again beliefs din? Tapos si Abbie lang yung hindi matinag pag dating sa catholic doctrines. Hehe wala lang, naalala ko lang. ;D
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Post by saladfingers on Jul 31, 2005 6:47:36 GMT -5
Hoy tin-talong gusto mo attend ka sa church namen? Tinatamad kasi ako pag ako lang ang na-attend tapos ayoko rin sumama sa youth service kasi mga epal kasama ko eh. Bwahahaha!
O kaya sa church nalang ng mama mo tayo attend. Sama ako sa minsan. Pag sinipag ako. Hehe
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Post by mszweird0o on Aug 1, 2005 3:51:12 GMT -5
oo naman ghindz! di ko makakalimutan un.. and still... im struggling! haha! kahit nasa catholic skool pa ko... ewn ko ba... pero actually nasa point nako ng pagiging A! haha! aion.. i know u get what i mean... masama pero ewan ko...  fifty fifty! lol! di ko lam kung ano nangyayari sken but i feel like mawawala na tlga faith ko... gaga nga ko eh... pero nagccmba pa rin naman ako... im really trying to listen pag nasa cmbahan ako... but still got questions.... weird questions at the back of my fuccin mind! haha! somehow nagdadasal pa rin ako pero di na tulad ng dati... na as in every day... every night. haaaayyyyy... i hate this time of my life!  |
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Post by mszweird0o on Aug 1, 2005 4:01:32 GMT -5
some poeple may know this, others may not have any idea about this... i've been a christian all my life! i just can't figure out why i can't say it to other people..especially to my high school friends.. i was really afraid of so many things..natatakot akong hindi maka-gain ng friends since nag high school ako..so i've never told anyone about that..pero i realized..ano nga ba ikinakatakot ko? i won't be persecuted anyway? bakit ikinakahiya ko ang Lord sa buhay ko?! maraming bagay na gusto kong maabot na kala ko magiging hindrance yung relationship ko with the Lord..i loved to be called ASTIG..yung tipong cool yung tingin sayo ng lahat..so i tried to fit in..and just now..i figured out na pwede naman pala kong maging astig sa Lord.. i've lived my high school life trying to please the people around me..my friends..pero how i can that say that i'm their friend if i'm not so true to them.. i really don't wanna come back to what i have been up to before..i am the same kristine you've known..only closer to God.. -------------------------------------- many would say that it is a waste being a Christian... for them, Christianity is a form of prison in which an individual becomes deprived of enjoying life and being happy... well, there's a truth to that... being a christian is, indeed, being imprisoned! but what sweeter prison can there be than to be in God's love! In the Lord, there is the genuine freedom of being free from the bondage of sin and of death and from the law... besides, who would want to be free from the Lord?...and who would want to run away from the true joy of being found in the Lord? ------------------------------------------ "for us this is the end of all the stories... but for them it was only the beginning of the real story. all their life in this world... had only been the cover & the title page: now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story, which no one on earth has read, which goes on forever & in which every chapter is better than the one before." lam mo tin nung binabasa ko to im expecting na ssabihin mo s bandang huli na joke lang... pati ung kay ghindie... pero hindi... elibs ako sayo... ibang tin ang nakikita ko.. dati pag napapdaan sa cmbahan kasama ka sa mga nangaasar na oi... wag kayo masyado magpakabanal... bka masunog! haha! lol! i dunno... pero un nga like what uv sed... u did dat juz to please others. and its not ryt.. sabi mo... im happeee for you... and im upset with myself... lol! it's tru! u may know me as a "taong simbahan"... choir member... etc... but i still cant figure out watz the essence of serving Him... and actually i dont feel it... it's like wala sa puso ko.. haha! corny.. but true. I SEE IT AS AN OBLIGATION... and its different from doing that because YOU LOVE HIM!ahhh... di ko na lam sasabihin ko... basta im troubled! very troubled! and lost i think... cge... keep it up... love you... |
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Post by life.love.light on Aug 1, 2005 8:52:59 GMT -5
Hoy tin-talong gusto mo attend ka sa church namen? Tinatamad kasi ako pag ako lang ang na-attend tapos ayoko rin sumama sa youth service kasi mga epal kasama ko eh. Bwahahaha! O kaya sa church nalang ng mama mo tayo attend. Sama ako sa minsan. Pag sinipag ako. Hehe epal ba mga youth senyo? hahaha...astig kasi smen eh..check mo yung ginawa kong xanga na bago kasi meron dung pics.. www.xanga.com/sinkinglittleweird meron din pala sa www.masquerade16.multiply.comayon..san ba church niyo? san sa las piñas? sige minsan sama ko..tapos sama ka rin smen..hahahaha..kaso medyo maaga kasi yung service nmin 8:30am..pero magkakaroon na kami ng youth service..d ko lang alam kung kelan yung start basta daw 1:30 - 4:00 ng hapon yun every sunday.. tawag ako minsan sa landline nyo..tagal na rin nating d nag-uusap..  |
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Post by life.love.light on Aug 1, 2005 9:00:39 GMT -5
lam mo tin nung binabasa ko to im expecting na ssabihin mo s bandang huli na joke lang... pati ung kay ghindie... pero hindi... elibs ako sayo... ibang tin ang nakikita ko.. dati pag napapdaan sa cmbahan kasama ka sa mga nangaasar na oi... wag kayo masyado magpakabanal... bka masunog! haha! lol! i dunno... pero un nga like what uv sed... u did dat juz to please others. and its not ryt.. sabi mo... im happeee for you... and im upset with myself... lol! it's tru! u may know me as a "taong simbahan"... choir member... etc... but i still cant figure out watz the essence of serving Him... and actually i dont feel it... it's like wala sa puso ko.. haha! corny.. but true. I SEE IT AS AN OBLIGATION... and its different from doing that because YOU LOVE HIM!ahhh... di ko na lam sasabihin ko... basta im troubled! very troubled! and lost i think... cge... keep it up... love you... thanks..hehehe..lam mo bang it took a lot [as in] of courage for me to post this thread..kasi lam mo naman..i'm still thinking of what other people may say about me.. actually, kaya ko naisipan ipost to kasi minsan nag-check ako ng friendster ko na halos half a year ko yata hindi nabuksan..tapos nakita ko yung account ng mga churchmates ko..lalo na sa youth..then i realized na bakit hindi ko magawa yung ganon..yung malaman ng ibang tao na Christian ako..kaya ayon, i tried to overcome that thing within me..sabi ko hindi naman siguro ako babarilin sa Luneta pag sinabi ko yun senyo db? tska sila..sobrang true sila sa mga kaibigan nila esp. sa sarili nila..kaya ayon..  |
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Post by mszweird0o on Sept 7, 2005 3:32:16 GMT -5
"The greatest irony of love"Loving the right person at the wrong time, ..having the wrong person when the time is right, and finding out you love someone right after, that person walks out of your life. ..and sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again... For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. In my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail, not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. As we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason ..why the heart is not always right.. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love ..but to only discover that for them, We are just for passing time. While the one who truly loves us ..remains either a friend or a stranger. So here's a piece of advice; Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love isn't enough. ..and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there, ..Who will love you even more." 
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Post by mszweird0o on Sept 7, 2005 3:33:33 GMT -5
^^feelings....^^
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Post by saladfingers on Sept 7, 2005 10:20:10 GMT -5
How tragic naman that piece. Well I dunno I haven't been in love soo can't say if I agree with what it says, about letting go I mean. Although even if I haven't loved someone more than the platonic kind of love, the best way out is to let go of course. I mean what's the use of sticking it if he/she that doesn't want you anymore. But that's my logical side talking, I really don't know what I'd do if it REALLY comes to that.
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Post by life.love.light on Sept 9, 2005 1:11:37 GMT -5
well, in my opinion..[naks!] it's easier to let go! marami din namang nagsasabi na d na uso yung pagiging martir..oo naman! bakit mo naman pagpipilitan yung sarili mo dun sa taong hindi ka na mahal?! ganon lang talaga..although mahirap kalimutan yung taong naging part ng buhay mo..i tell you..you'll get over it! tingnan niyo ko...hahaha!
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Post by tEchNY|koLouR|gEek on Sept 12, 2005 4:11:19 GMT -5
well, in my opinion..[naks!] it's easier to let go! marami din namang nagsasabi na d na uso yung pagiging martir..oo naman! bakit mo naman pagpipilitan yung sarili mo dun sa taong hindi ka na mahal?! ganon lang talaga..although mahirap kalimutan yung taong naging part ng buhay mo..i tell you..you'll get over it! tingnan niyo ko...hahaha! sige nga patingin ;D |
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Post by tEchNY|koLouR|gEek on Sept 12, 2005 4:12:36 GMT -5
wow... maganda yan..khit d ko pa nararanasan yan.. pero xiempre based on the experience of others.. medio i could say na tama yan.. |
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Post by mszweird0o on Sept 12, 2005 9:51:08 GMT -5
How tragic naman that piece. Well I dunno I haven't been in love soo can't say if I agree with what it says, about letting go I mean. Although even if I haven't loved someone more than the platonic kind of love, the best way out is to let go of course. I mean what's the use of sticking it if he/she that doesn't want you anymore. But that's my logical side talking, I really don't know what I'd do if it REALLY comes to that. someday you'll know... nakz! haha! aion... madali naman mag let go eh.. ang mahirap lang tlga na part is to MOVE ON... un lang.. pero look at tin nga.. hehehe... o dba? magandang example yan! totoo ba naman un? jox!!!! ;D |
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Post by life.love.light on Sept 12, 2005 21:23:24 GMT -5
why don't you believe me?! hahaha..! i'm not just making it too obvious..yung tipong pag ganyan yung topic todo tawa ka..ang labas nun eh parang nag-p-pretend ka lang na masaya ka na nga..may gashes! ang plastic nun! basta..i laugh..i frown..i cry [but u won't get to see the tears i cry, behind these dark bwon eyes!..adik!]..depende sa situation at emotion..
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fifty fifty! lol! di ko lam kung ano nangyayari sken but i feel like mawawala na tlga faith ko... gaga nga ko eh... pero nagccmba pa rin naman ako...
